Diving In

DCP_2080The story behind Broken Hearts Healed. For over a decade I scanned the Christian bookstores seeking to find a book that would do three things:

(1) tell the story of a fallen daughter

(2) have the component of a missionary calling

(3) show a godly, pure romance

I couldn’t relate to the pristine, godly true romance stories and I figured based on statistics, a lot of girls would also cringe inside and think, “That’s nice for you but that can never be my story.” I wanted a book that would encourage teenage girls and young women that God can still do amazing things in your life, even if you have lost your sexual innocence.

I finally realized the prompting from the Lord that I needed to write my story. It would be no less miraculous than the pure romance stories because it would still bring Him glory. I knew that writing my story meant risk and vulnerability. Yet, I imagined the hope it could bring and the healing that God could do in women’s hearts and lives if I shared my life with them.

Honestly, I didn’t want to run on the platform of “sexual abuse victim.” That was something I wished to forget and yet it became apparent that without sharing that part of my story, I wasn’t being true to my readers or myself. It was out of that place of deepest pain that God has brought forth tremendous victory.

It is my greatest desire that you will buy this book for yourself or even your friend and that God will use it to touch your life with His love. I am passionate about this story because I Know what God’s love did for me and I long to see you embrace that for yourself.

So, if I have captured your interest, Click on the Buy Now button and order Broken Hearts Healed!





Upcoming Book: Broken Hearts Healed, A Story of Transformation

At five years old, Ruth is an outgoing girl and her favorite place is church…until her world is rocked by sexual abuse. Now she lives in a private hell of silence, rejection, rage and shame.

As a teenager, desperate for attention, she spirals further into depression, embracing a lifestyle of promiscuity, sensuality and self-hatred. Stripped of innocence, deceived by people she trusted and haunted by skeletons from her past, Ruth longs for love but doesn’t believe she will ever find it. Shame engulfs her. Suicide is tempting. Who would ever want to marry a fallen preacher’s daughter?

Broken Hearts Healed, A Story of Transformation is a powerful true story of redemption and romance.

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Any Readers Out There?

Seeking for readers who would buy this book, if it were available. Trying to build a platform to attract the attention of an agent or publisher willing to take a risk on a new author.

Many of us have skeletons in the closet. Things that we are ashamed of and that bring pain to our hearts. Those things in the past that have threatened to destroy us and that we have conveniently swept under the rug to forget. But God can take those very brittle and hard things that have shaped our lives and breathe life into the dry, dead bones. He can restore us and use those very bones to be like an army that stands strong to deliver us and others.

Broken Hearts Healed is the retelling of a sexual abuse victim with all the consequent silence, shame, confusion, low self-esteem and false guilt. In the 1960’s no one talked about child sexual abuse. The “therapy” of that time was silence, in hopes that the child would forget. I was first molested in a private daycare at five years old. My father, torn between speaking up for his daughter’s lost innocence or losing his job chose to stay silent. As a pastor, he had his own anguish to deal with and he thought by removing physical affection from me, I would forget what had happened. None of this was explained to me.

As a child who wanted to be a missionary when I grew up, I went from adoring my father and loving church, to despising him and being very confused about my feelings towards God. It was a silent, painful hell that no one knew I lived in until I was sixteen. By that point, I had totally rejected my parents, morality and God. School was filled with daily insults about how ugly I was and I felt less than human, like a dog or chopped liver. This shame escalated when boys met me in the woods or parked cars for sexual encounters. At sixteen I thought I was pregnant and I told my parents rather than committing suicide.

But this book is far more than an abuse story. It is the total transformation and redemption to a radical love for God, for missions and the amazing ways in which God healed my heart, emotions and mind. Furthermore, it captures the beauty of a romantic love story with all the humor, surprise and suspense. Think of a marriage between Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson and When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy and you have an idea of what you will find in Broken Hearts Healed—A Rare Love Story, a spiritual memoir.

Would love to hear if there is interest?